Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Peace and reward

A strange thing has happened

I can't really tell you when

And I can only tell you it is by His grace

BUT an explicable calm has overcome us.

My brain tells me I should be freaked, panicked, spending my days worried.

Instead my heart, and soul are at peace.

This summer we have faced a lot.

a 4 year old losing both legs,
an unexpected bone surgery and rods,
instead of casts for 4 weeks . . . it became 8.

Now a wound infection
that needs to be changed twice a day,
a cast that is open where the wound is,
on a 4 year old.

An MRI for our Fei,
waiting to see if we need spinal decompression surgery,
deciding if that surgery will be here,
or on the east coast . . . which we will probably choose.

Reminders that we have no history,
on either of our treasures.
Truly, and although it seems like we have had them forever,
we don't know how they will react to anesthesia,
if they're allergic to anything,
if her potty accidents are personality or medical.

Dossier issues and the constant rumors,
A baby on the other side of the world,
and no hope of pictures, updates or even care packages.


And still He grows me,
and I find that when I remember He is in control,
and I look up instead of in,
I find incredible peace and rewards.

Home 48 hours after major surgery,
No issues with sedation for either,
incredible Dr's - experts in their fields.

It's funny as I chose to reply to a constant naysayer yesterday,
How this was God's journey and we were at peace with the LOA wait,
AND today
we woke to a little note of encouragement,
"Out of translation!"
One tiny step forward but oh did it do my heart good.
Reminding what a loving Father we have!

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
                                                                      Jeremiah 29:11


  1. Amen!!!! And praying for y'all!!!

  2. Sending lots of prayers your way, especially for Cav and FeiFei. If FeiFei has surgery in the DC/VA/MD area please know that you are more than welcome to stay with us.

  3. {{hugs}} Your journey is meant to be and you can rest in His peace you are on the right path.