Saturday, June 18, 2011

Lightness in the dark

We have been desperately  patiently waiting for our I800-A approval.  I have never been a patient person - in fact I am a world class present rewrapper!  I can't even think how many Christmas's that I did not know my presents atleast a week before the holiday.  Hmmm now that I actually verbalize this - I am realizing this might be why God keeps trying to teach me patience LOL!!

Anyhow, I800-A's are taking atleast 60 days right now.  An excrutiating amount of time for an unpatient person.  I think the hardest is that Cav so desperately needs to be home and have surgery on his little legs.  It breaks my heart to think of our sweet 3 year old boy who can only walk on his knees waiting a day longer than necessary.

ANyhow, I finally broke down and called the homeland security number on the 15th of June.  Once I found out we had an officer I chickened and didn't ask to speak to them.  So today I received the nice little homeland security envelope but the letter was pink :0(  Sure enough we were RFE'd for nothing less than our marriage certificate.  WHAT - our agency #1 in colorado sent everything in - apparently they missed something!  Ugh the only saving grace is I got the mail at 3:30 pm and the last mail pickup is 4:15.  I made it with one minute to spare!!  Sent an original certificate via priority mail so it should arrive Monday.

This and a not so supportive text this morning were more than enough to put me over the edge.  Well that and a 12 year old who is hitting puberty full force and some wild freaking children.  This was the proverbial last straw.  I went up to my room and laid down.  I wanted to jsut hide in my bed but then thought, this is a perfect time to read from the bible.  Unfortunately, Fortunately, my bible was downstairs but then I thought of my favorite app on my phone!  The my bible app has not jsut the bible, but is searchable as well as a bible study mode.  I started reading verses about orphans - this made me feel a little better.  Then on to adoption - there are a lot of verses on this one!  Lastly, I searched Matthias - we decided after church a few weeks ago tis was the perfect middle name for Cavanaugh.  Then I decided to look at the bible studies and chose the life application study bible.  I chose the personal life one and what came up? Psalm 6:6 - Here is what it said - "


Pouring out his heart with tears, David was completely honest with God. We can be honest with God even when we are filled with anger or despair because God knows us thoroughly and wants the very best for us. Anger may result in rash outward acts or turning inward towards depression. But because we trust in our all-powerful God, we don't have to be victims of circumstance or be weighted down by the guilt of sin. Be honest with God, and he will help you turn your attention from yourself to him and his mercy."

I was floored, and it definately brought me out of my despair and back focused on Him.  This is definately a journey created by Him - to be sure of this all I have to remember is the story of finding Cav.  

"Pouring out his heart with tears, David was completely honest with God. We can be honest with God even when we are filled with anger or despair because God knows us thoroughly and wants the very best for us. Anger may result in rash outward acts or turning inward towards depression. But because we trust in our all-powerful God, we don't have to be victims of circumstance or be weighted down by the guilt of sin. Be honest with God, and he will help you turn your attention from yourself to him and his mercy."


1 comment:

  1. OHHH, I am so sorry about the RFE. You will have your approval soon.

    The waiting is so hard, but God is so faithful! Praying!

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