What a down right stellar day!
I didn't realize the stress I have been carrying on my shoulders.
For those who don't know, we actually discussed disrupting Cav's adoption in China.
I tell you this because a recent discussion on RQ has brought to light that we should have discussed WHAT if's ~ even the crazy impossible ones BEFORE we left.
Not when we were sleep deprived and couldn't provide the basic essentials for our family.
Not when we somehow lost sight of God in a land without religion.
Not when Cav was trying to destroy the room
official offices
or taking out little man.
Why you might ask would we even contemplate disrupting his adoption?
Cav has significant leg issues, we knew that, we researched it BUT it is a 1 in a million birth defect and he is affected bilaterally! I am to bad at math to know what that equals, but know only 30% have bilateral tibial hemimilia.
THen we saw Cav, and I immediately saw that both his hands were also affected. All FOUR limbs!?! THe chance of having a genetic disorder now affecting his limbs was exponentially higher. THIS meant he had a very high chance of having organ issues.
We NEEDED to discuss if we could care for him,
we NEEDED to remember that this was still the child that GOD sent to us,
we NEEDED to realize that GOD knew what we could handle when we reviewed his file,
HE knew we would have looked at him with our humanness not trusting in HIS plan
knowing full well that HE would take care of this child He had already moved mountains for.
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
I didn't realize the stress I have been carrying on my shoulders.
For those who don't know, we actually discussed disrupting Cav's adoption in China.
I tell you this because a recent discussion on RQ has brought to light that we should have discussed WHAT if's ~ even the crazy impossible ones BEFORE we left.
Not when we were sleep deprived and couldn't provide the basic essentials for our family.
Not when we somehow lost sight of God in a land without religion.
Not when Cav was trying to destroy the room
official offices
or taking out little man.
Why you might ask would we even contemplate disrupting his adoption?
Cav has significant leg issues, we knew that, we researched it BUT it is a 1 in a million birth defect and he is affected bilaterally! I am to bad at math to know what that equals, but know only 30% have bilateral tibial hemimilia.
THen we saw Cav, and I immediately saw that both his hands were also affected. All FOUR limbs!?! THe chance of having a genetic disorder now affecting his limbs was exponentially higher. THIS meant he had a very high chance of having organ issues.
We NEEDED to discuss if we could care for him,
we NEEDED to remember that this was still the child that GOD sent to us,
we NEEDED to realize that GOD knew what we could handle when we reviewed his file,
HE knew we would have looked at him with our humanness not trusting in HIS plan
knowing full well that HE would take care of this child He had already moved mountains for.
This is what we saw ~
An ODD looking hand
No muscle below the thumb
A primal raking grasp
No pincer grasp
Minimal strength
This is what God Saw
Today we learned that this "defect" that seemed so large in the midst of China,
THe one Satan used so incredibly well to turn us away from our purpose,
Is minimal,
May need surgery,
SOMEDAY!
We learned an incredible lesson that we will carry until we meet our Creator.
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
~*AMEN*~ That is wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post!
ReplyDeleteThe quote is really true..In Jesus everything is possible:)
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Wow- thanks for sharing. That was so well written and full of great reminders! Your son is just precious!
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